A New Focus - Making Each Day Count

Over the last week, Tim has experienced a rapid decline in his health and quality of life.  Cancer tumors have taken over both of his lungs and he is having extreme difficulty breathing.  Between this and the fact that he is eating almost nothing, he has no energy and is easily zapped.

Today we embarked on something I wish upon no one - Hospice Care. I say that because for us it means there are no more viable options to cure or slow down the progression of Tim's disease. Although I desperately wish we didn't have to go through this, I am so thankful for people who walk with us through it.  Our primary care doctor cried with us, prayed with us, and expedited paperwork to get us moving in the right direction.  The admissions nurse was most helpful and explained everything - for those of you who have experienced my "lists," you know this can be a daunting task. We already know that we are blessed with a hospice doctor who will give us the very best care - she's the entire reason we chose the hospice organization we did.  Let me just say, Hospice Care is a gift.  Those who choose to work in hospice are gifted and it's a gift to the patients and their families. 

This is awful and I hate every minute of it, but know that one day our tears will become fewer and we will be able to treasure the memories we have. For now, the four of us are spending as much time together as possible.  We laugh, we cry, and we just sit in silence together.  We know life goes on around us and I'm trying to keep the kids' schedules as normal as possible, for one day we will reenter everyday life with a new normal.

Pray specifically for Cooper and Abby as they live this horrible experience. They are my and Tim's biggest concern.